Wednesday, July 3, 2013

In Terms Of Psychological Abuse...

If I were maliciously ignoring someone on purpose in order to fuck with their head, that would definitely be psychological abuse.

However, if I am studiously avoiding a person because I cannot bear even the thought of them looking at my face. If the idea of being in the same room as them makes my hyperventilate. If I genuinely cannot handle their presence... that is not psychologically abusing said person.

That is just me retaining my sanity.

Because I honestly, genuinely want to say 10,000 horrible things to that person.

I want to shout at him and spit in his face and smash all of his possessions into splinters. I want to rant and rage and scream that he is not fucking Job. My entire being is not a trial on him. He is not the centre of the whole fucking universe - IN FACT, MOST PEOPLE DON'T GIVE TWO SHITS ABOUT HIM BECAUSE HE IS VILE AND ANNOYING AND COMPLAINS AND SPREADS MISERY LIKE THE PLAGUE. He is not a fucking character in the bible (which is fictional, BY THE WAY) and his 'god' is not real.

I want to unleash such fury at him that he'll never speak again. To me. About me. To anyone. About anything.

I desperately want to punch him in the fucking face for eating my food and not replacing it.

HOWEVER, I don't do any of these things.

Because I cannot fucking deal with his presence. So I hide.

And he calls me hiding 'psychological abuse'.

He likes to make every little thing about himself, so instead of realizing that he is actually, literally, genuinely unbearable, he accuses me of being malicious.

Dipshit.

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