Underland

When I was little, whenever I would get sick and have a fever, I'm not sure if it was NOT taking my ADHD medicine... or because I DID take it... but I used to have the same dream over and over again, as well as other night terrors and hallucinations when I was awake. I distinctly recall a specific instance when I was in my parents bed, and my mother was with me, and I was certain there were buggly little machines crawling across the bedspread doing their own little jobs. I don't remember if I thought they were terrifying or not... I can still see them in my head.

My mother kept telling me they weren't there, but I couldn't sleep because I could feel them, and when I'd open my eyes, I could see them, as well.

To this day, when I am sick, I still get this weird jittery feeling when I'm lying in bed. I don't think I have the hallucinations anymore, but I do still have "the dream". It's my sick dream. I always know I'm actually sick when I have it.

It's like I'm two people at once, sitting in a house looking faaaar across some sort of open space into the other house, at myself. One of them is alone in an empty house, and the other is in a house full of people with buzzing chatter going on. It just keeps switching perspectives.

ANYWAY. I think I probably blog about this every time I feel at all sick, but whatever. Whenever I am sick, I always watch Alice In Wonderland. It somehow makes me feel better because it's mad anyway, and when I get sick, my brain goes a bit... round the bend, really.

It's Alice time.

In other news, since I'll make this not a completely pointless post...
Today we went to the Nordic Centre and went cross country skiing. Which was kind of like torture. I did pretty all right for the most part, but when I was returning my skis, I had a ridiculously clumsy moment and slipped on the concrete of the rental centre. My knee hurts sooo bad now and I dropped both my skis and poles and ended up in a ridiculous sprawl across the entry way. The staff laughed at me and said I was awesome. I was like, "oh gee, thanks." But honestly, I definitely would have done the EXACT same thing if it had been someone else.

Blogger is really dropping the ball on the ease of updating thing... It's so slow lately! It makes me want to never update here... but I've had this blog forever, so I shouldn't stop now. It's the most faithful I've ever been to any sort of blog or diary in my life.

I feel like shit, so I'm going to watch Heston's Alice feast, and then actually watch Alice, at which point I will probably pass out half-way through.

Wild Hearts

Guess I was pretty shit at updating in March. Oh well. It was mostly because blogger was being a fucking dick and I kept losing patience instead of waiting for it to get its shit together.

Anyway. I guess I've been busy doing things. Work. Reading. Whatever else.

What I really wanted to blog about was music. I was watching this video, because I came across it on a website, not youtube, and decided to watch it.



Every second of every song I listen to, my life is changing. The way I listen, the way I think. Everything. It's all just in a constant state of flux because of music. It's kindof amazing.

One of the great things about music, is that, you're always listening to someone who is in love with what they do. How can they not be if they struggle so much to be able to create it?

My point is, music is beautiful. And it teaches me things every day.

Also. Go look at this. She just updated it, and her photography is always beautiful.